The Shepherd's Sermon

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Post Fri Dec 20, 2013 8:44 pm

The Shepherd's Sermon

The Shepherd unbuckled his gun belt and placed it carefully on the dinner table before stepping back. He took a stool, walked it to a position where he could see the room and sat down.
“I used to be a member of the Alliance Military’s Special Forces, I trained as a marine recon specialist, then as a commando and a trainer of commandos. I do not tell you this to impress you, merely to inform you that I was well skilled in murder and used to applying it.
“I was a highly trained weapon, a killer who dealt government approved murder. I ended lives on the orders of people whom I trusted to know better, I worked with people like Caine and Reagan to deal death on the orders of our superiors until one day I learnt a terrifying truth.
“I learnt that regardless of who gave the order I was responsible for my actions all the time. Sounds like a simple lesson but it was a hard earned one. I was responsible, always had been and until recently I was due a place in Hell for my sins. “
The Preacher paused before continuing, fixing each member of the crew with his gaze before moving on.
“Rumour on the wave has it that when someone survives a Reaver attack it changes them, takes away part of what makes them human and brings out part of the Reaver in them. Whilst we were on Higgins Moon decisions were made, people died and others were severely mistreated. Such callous acts were not the fault of the Reavers back on Zenith, they were the actions of frightened people who had been through a lot of horror.”
“That horror, that night of darkness and grasping death, that was a reason not an excuse. Reagan has asked me to look after our ship and our family so I will.” The Shepherd looked around the room.
“This is a one-time offer of complete absolution. Tell me. Tell us, your crew, your family what happened on that moon. Tell us what you did and why you felt you had to do what you did. Why? Why tell me? Because I want my family, my flock back the way they were. We suffered on Zenith and we took it out on other people on that moon back there, but I believe we can and will recover. Honesty to ourselves and each other is the first step to that.”

"I will go first because I don't ask anything of nobody that I can't do myself...
"I met a beautiful women with whom I seem to have connected, I put that connection pursuing that lass before the safety and mental well being of my crew, my flock. I should have seen your suffering quicker than I did, I should have spoken earlier and I did not. I apologise to each of you and I will apologise to Poppy when I see her next.
"Every single one of you are my priority, now and forever. She will understand and She will expect nothing less, if She don't then we ain't as connected as I thought we were."
The Preacher looked straight ahead, seeing all, looking at none.
"Who wants to go next?"
"Praise the Lord and pass the Ammunition"
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Post Fri Dec 20, 2013 9:41 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

Burton looked down at his knuckles, then took a deep breath and let it out.
Lets get this over with. He thought to himself.
"Before we hit atmo I tried a new mixture, and it went wrong." he began, "The dosage was wrong." He cocked his head thinking, "I haven't been sleeping that well since Zenith so that may have affected it." he muttered to himself, the others looked at him. "Sorry, thinking out loud. -Anyway, it made me see and hear things." He clenched his fists, "I then put people in danger by not being able to do my job and also was a liability." He looked round, "That wasn't the worst of it. -While I know it's no excuse I think the effects seemed to linger and I..." He paused trying to think of the correct words, then decided to go with what Poppy had said, "I lost my sense of right and wrong, and abused my powers as a doctor." He looked down, "I've driven away someone who was my friend. -And I heard Oz while we were down there, he blamed me for not being able to save him, I know it wasn't real, but it was damn scary!" he ended.
He felt a little better now.
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Post Sun Dec 22, 2013 11:17 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

Chai listened intently as Shepherd Lock said his piece. However as the reason for the summons became clear his blood cooled and a shiver ran down his spine. He was still trying to get it straight in his own mind what had gone wrong on that forsaken mud hole they left behind and he wasn't sure he was ready to discuss this privately, let alone in front of the whole crew.

Burton standing to make his own declaration brought Chai out of his thoughts and back to the situation at hand. The doctor's words cleared up a lot he'd been uncertain about during the mission in regards to his actions. Perhaps it was the same medication that caused the slip up during the negotiations with the hospital.

As Burton sat down Chai looked around the room at the various faces, it was clear everyone there was tormented in one way or another by what they had seen, or done. Well, almost everyone, Chai caught Kidd's perky grin, and found himself giving her a wink back before he knew what he was doing. He gained strength from the sincerity of her playful smile and came to a decision 'Okay,' he thought to himself, 'Perhaps now is a good time, after all ...'

With a deep breath Chai rose to his feet, feeling the crew's eyes turn to him. He doubted much of what he was about to say would come as a surprise to any of them, and even if it did he owed it to them to be honest about his thoughts and reservations.

"I'm not even sure I know where to start with the hell that place brought upon us." Glancing over to the preacher, he added, "If you'll be willin' to excuse the turn o' phrase Shepherd." He looked down at the floor for a moment, finding it hard to meet anyone's gaze directly before continuing.

"Captain Regan left me to keep things tickin' over for him while he was busy with his duties an' I aint entirely sure I did him justice. Sophia's friend Bessie was murdered because a bag o' coin under my protection was allowed to fall into her hands. She shouldn't have ever had the chance to take 'em. That girls blood is on my hands."

"The run to the hospital went bad cause I was tryin' to drag files from their system to value a set of Gen Tec human organs I'd picked up from one o' them mudders. Them folks at that hospital died cause o' me. Alisha was shot and came close her own self, and more 'n a few of you got caught in that blast."

Chai paused a moment, toying with one of the clasps on his belt pouch before managing to continue, "It was a file that I pulled from their severs that leaked out into the core and caused the lock down." he tried to meet Alisha's eye at this revelation but couldn't bring himself to do it, "I ain't sure how it got out on a wave, but I can't say for sure that weren't my fault."

"Preacher and Captain put me in charge of the raid to rescue Fess and we all know how that went. Came far too close to losing some good folks on that run, Captain bein' one o' them. I still ain't sure all that could o' been done better there but again, I kinda get to feelin' that some faith put in me ain't being lived up to."

This time Chai did look up and made to meet the preachers gaze directly, "I even wanted to use a mudder riot to help us get in to Boss Higgin's compound to make him pay for tryin' to hold out on our pay. That's puttin' innocent folks lives after us gettin' paid. I know I've done plenty o' killin' over the years but I like to think them folks were either soldiers or those deservin' of the fate that came to 'em. After Higgin's Moon ..." Chai sat back down and shook his head as his voice trailed off, "I ain't so sure ..."
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Post Thu Dec 26, 2013 10:41 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

Kid gripped Chai's arm as he sat back down. She was next round the table, guess it was her turn. She stood up and glanced round the table. "I ain't sure I've got a lot to say, I missed out on the worst of what y'all got back on Zenith. I... I've seen sommit similar, so I kinda know what yer all went through down there. What I mostly took away from that rock though was confidence. In myself and all of yer. I realised you weren't the sort that were gonna lie down and die. An' tha' means a lot out here." She shifted awkwardly and grinned sheepishly at the Preacher "I ain't sayin' yer wrong, Shepherd, just that's what I saw. As for Higgin's Moon, I don't know how many of yer noticed, but I was kinda in my element. I ain't been called on so much in such a short space o' time since the firefly I was on blew a compression coil catalyser. I ain't sayin' there's stuff I couldn't have done better, like that incubator which could'a done with a bit more tweakin' an' that goram bank vault door which I shoulda shorted out through the power trip, but given the time again, there ain't nothin' I'd do different." She sat back down again quickly.
Nah, ship didn't need those parts anyway...
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Post Sun Dec 29, 2013 5:12 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

Alisha stared at Lock, confessions were done privately between a Shepherd and the person confessing. But Lock was no conventional Preacher. Alisha listened to Burton as he spoke. William Burton had been suffering, he had missed a lot of important things over the course of the weekend, but Alisha hadn't seen him abusing his being a Doctor. She had heard Tobias shouting at him late on Sunday, but had been too busy to truly realise the meaning. Alisha felt a flare of anger towards the older man, her fingers gripping tightly around her mug. Doctors were there to heal, to care, and Burton had abused his medical knowledge? It made her feel sick, how could she trust him not to do something like that again? Alisha watched Lock, the Preacher, pondering what she would say, what had she done wrong at Higgins Moon, what did I do right? Higgins Moon had been a disaster from when they set foot on that forsaken rock. But still Alisha sat in silence, what did she need to get off her chest, so much had happened.

She listened in silence as Chai gave his confession, idly touching the closed wound just above her temple as he mentioned GenTec. He blamed himself for a lot, but how much of it was actually his to be blamed for? His actions may have been a catalyst for bad events, but he hadn’t done it with the intension to do so, or with malice. And they say Hindsight is 20/20.

Kid put a positive spin on the conversation and the young doctor smiled slightly, then she felt all eyes fall onto her. The hairs standing on the back of her neck…

She was next.

Alisha stood up, it seemed to take more effort than it should, and she could already feel her legs trembling, her fingers gripping her coffee mug tightly to stop the unconscious twitch moving to her hands. She didn’t want to be judged, but no one ever does. Honesty to ourselves and each other is the first step. She took in a deep breath, and looked across the table to Lock, his features we’re impassive. Sparing a glance around her crew, she saw only support. But still the young doctor felt the lump build in her throat.

“Higgin’s Moon was a living hell for me…. I. I left behind logic and reasoning, I panicked, and I committed acts I have never thought myself capable of.” Alisha’s fingers drummed against her coffee mug. “I lost too many on Higgin’s moon. I euthanized a Jane doe, as a doctor, we never euthanize, but we hadn’t the equipment to save her and we couldn’t get it in time. She was going to die it was only a matter of which minute her body would choose to give up. I could have waited, maybe I should have, and let her die on her own time, but instead I helped her along.”

Slowly and deliberately Alisha forced herself to sip her coffee, “I’ve had more than my share of bad days, and I can feel them eating away at me… But Wyatt’s death nearly broke me… Higgin’s moon was a disaster,” Her voice cracked. “The man we had gone to confront was killed before I even had chance to talk to him. Blown up bad enough that I couldn’t recognise him, and all I could do was to grasp at straws to outright deny it was my brother…” Alisha’s green eyes moved down to stare at the table, her voice lowering a notch. Honesty to ourselves and each other is the first step “I have never before wanted to hurt someone so badly as I did Claymore when I finally let myself see the proof it was Wyatt. I left my pistol on the table, because for those few confrontational moments, I didn’t trust myself not to use it.”

Alisha looked up, tight lipped and tears sparkling in her emerald eyes. She looked like she had more to say, but instead shook her head and sat back down, deciding that she needed a few minutes to compose herself again.
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IC- Dr. Alisha "Scrubs" Corbon- "If you can't do somethin' Smart, do somethin' Right... If you can't do somethin' Right, do Somethin'"
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Post Mon Dec 30, 2013 9:23 am

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

The Preacher listened to Burton's words quietly nodding, he remained still during Chai's self recriminations as he knew he'd need to deal with that, Kid's words warmed his soul but his heart went out to the little Doctor. He continued to watch the room to see who'd speak next.
"Praise the Lord and pass the Ammunition"
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Post Mon Jan 06, 2014 1:05 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

McNally shrugged slightly and reached his feet. ‘Mind if I say somethin’ Padre?’ To Lock’s nod, McNally continued. ‘I’m ‘fraid I try not to regret what’s done. The choices I make and the things I do are as right as I figure I get ‘em. On New Kincardine I put a gun to Mei’s head to stop her doin’ somethin’ stupid and let Admiral Essex get away. On Zenith I got all wrapped up on lookin’ after Alisha and forgot to look out for others, lettin’ the rest of you down... an’ on Higgins Moon, I risked my neck and Alisha’s walkin’ into a shuttle of armed Mercs on a chance that they’d not searched her. I rolled the dice and came up winnin’ but I could’a lost.’

He paused and shook his head. ‘Both her and me could’a been done. Thing is I don’t think I’d do much different even knowin’ what I know now... ‘cept for tellin’ folks the way I was thinkin’. Now I came aboard this rig aimin’ to be here for a couple of drops till I could find another fight to earn my keep. Then, after New Kincardine, I reckoned I’d be useful as a scapegoat for when Regan needed someone to blame to get y’all off the hook. Now I’m the pilot, and your lives are in my hands most times even without me thinkin’... a fact I only realised today.'

He paced the room slowly. 'Cards on the table, here, but we’ve all made mistakes, big an’ small.’ He looked to Alisha. ‘We all did things we wish we didn’t hafta, but we do what we can with what we got.’ He looked to Chai. ‘And as long as you come back from an ‘op’ you get to learn from your mistakes. Confessin’s only the first part. Apologisin’s the second and learnin follows that. We all gotta learn to trust one another... and for me that’s a big ask, not that I don’t wanna trust but that I don’t think I’m worthy of your trust.’ He stopped, leaned on the table and looked to Alisha again. ‘But there’s folks that reckon I am so... I’m sorry for lettin’ y’all down at times and actin’ alone when I ought’a be workin’ as a team. And...’

He sighed. ‘And my... my name... my name is... you all can start callin’ me ‘Det’ rather than ‘McNally’. Whichever.’ He shrugged, sat down and stared at his feet.
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Post Mon Jan 06, 2014 6:40 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

"You might be wondering why I asked you all to talk about these things out in the open, that's why. McNally is right, confession is the first step. It means you know what was done was wrong, apologising is second the act of contrition, leading to forgiveness the third."

The Preacher came to his feet slowly and looked around the room.

"Fact of the matter is this, I am not just your Preacher anymore, you are not just my flock and my family. Reagan asked me a favour so he can keep all of the commandos under him on the Blood Rose. Since I have turned my back on my days as a soldier, I am now your Captain." Lock paused to let this announcement sink in.

"Doc Burton, I'd consider it a kindness if you would care to swap with old Doc Carter when we meet up on Athens so we all have someone we know patching the Captain back up from whatever asshattery Claymore cooks up. Your skills as a combat surgery will be more use to them than Carter and his game leg." Lock smiled at his old friend to ensure no one thought the younger man being booted.

"Since Miss Mei is now first mate on the Night Rose I will be converting her old double room into a second infirmary for Doc Carter to set up as he likes it, strikes me Doc's are like cats and prefer their own patch. We'll call them Infirmaries 'A' n 'C' for Alisha and Chris since I doan want any talk of whose the better.
"McNally and Kidd, I want that shuttle of ours the fastest scunner around. Frankly put, when brown stuff interfaces with fan I expect that shuttle to pull out our injured folks. Marshall and I will ride shotgun on those missions, since that lad can pick the wings of a dung beetle with 50 cal.
"We bin through all manner of carnage, but it's time to get back to business, salvage and rescue."

"We are a family here, some of us might not be staying and we can't help that. But we are getting a new brother in Doctor Chris Carter, so I'd like him to feel welcome. We have ourselves an empty bunk at present, keep that in mind if you think folks can be better placed here than where they are sat right now."

"McNally is parking us up on Whitefall and using the shuttle to hop, Burton and Reagan over to Athens. Till then have a think on it and let me know what your thoughts are."
"Praise the Lord and pass the Ammunition"
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Post Mon Jan 06, 2014 8:06 pm

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

Burton listened and nodded at what McNally and Lock said, he stopped when he mentioned Regan and him moving to the Blood Rose.
A transfer? He didn't want to transfer. He liked it here, had he managed to piss Lock off to?
The smile reassured him that was not the case. Thinking about it this was a good idea.
If the Blood Rose was going to be off doing interesting stuff, which was more than likely now that Caine and Regan where back together it was probably best that there was a doctor on board who was used to the problems those two caused.
Also it wasn't going to be long before Alisha and him came to blows over the infirmary. It was getting pretty tense now.
It had really annoyed him how after all the work he'd put into getting and stocking it she'd arrived and then taken over as if it were hers. Without even asking.
He nodded understanding. "At least it's not 24 hours warning like they used to give us." He said with a smile, then "She hasn't painted the inside has she?" He asked worriedly. "Please tell me she hasn't. I had to go in her cabin once and swore never again! Imagine a whole ship like that."
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Post Wed Jan 08, 2014 7:48 am

Re: The Shepherd's Sermon

Alisha was feeling more than a little chastised as she listened to Locks speech, though she couldn’t pinpoint if it was directed at her, or if she was just feeling overly sensitive. We'll call them Infirmaries 'A' n 'C' for Alisha and Chris since I doan want any talk of whose the better.
She still found the energy to smile, at least she knew she would be able to find what she needed in the her Infirmary, nothing would suddenly vanish or rearrange itself, it would well and truly be hers set up in the manner that suited her best, with everything on shelves she could reach, everything in its proper place, and well stocked with an stock check list so she would know when stocks were low. She did wonder if Burton was being moved because of the rising tension between her and the older man. It had been coming from both sides, she was sure Burton had purposely been mucking the infirmary up, but Alisha had noticed her patience lacking somewhat since she had attempted to stop drinking after Zenith.

It certainly sounded like there was a lot of work for the Rosin Dubh to help it get back to what it was intended to be salvage and rescue. The doctor waited for Lock to finish his speech before raising her half full coffee mug, “Congratulations Lock, Captain."
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